“I am who I am”

20180709_2333501I’m not myself
I’m not who you want me to be
I’m not who I want to be
I am who I am
I’m sad most of the time
I’m not suicidal
But I’m not breathing life
I smile to look happy
I’m such a good actor that no one notices
Sometimes I wish they could
I don’t want attention but I want people to know I’m sad
I’m not one for crying
But lately it’s all I want to do
I go through the day in a haze talking to people as if I’m happy
I laugh at their jokes
When they ask me if I’m ok
I smile and say yes
Wishing I could say no
I’m not myself
But I am who I am.